Behind the Facade of People's Rule

We all come out of boxes.Layers and layers of it.I came out of a layer where I know I am a leader of my own,and I can't have people bossing me around.


"It's your learning curve,you can't just jump into managing," said my hero.


True,I second him on that,but today was a rough day at work,when the person hawking me was not my boss!It's amazing how to see that people are intimidated or feel threatened by someone new.Their comfort zone is shaken up,thus the trying to pin me down part kicks in.People have set up their own rules,and when it gets disturbed,time to flip out.To feel disturbed and to really be disturbed are two different things.I can't help your insecurity,but I certainly can help not stealing your job.(because that is what you think)


Oh,I made some calls to our future prospect clients.Some of them were really sweet,giving me a chance to explain.(Gave me their patience as they know I am getting paid for what I am doing).So Thank you for that.And then there are some others who does not waste even 1 micro second on you.Oh well,I must have caught them at a bad time,hence the reaction.


By the way I am sitting in my new office.Pretty desk,a phone,comfy chair.absolute silence and I'm watching people walk by my office and giving me the dirty look.(People in this building somehow have issues of their own)


It feels good to be the head.Like my boss said "You are a natural leader, Rekka.Now catch everything I throw at you and get the hell out there and start!".


So catching has started.Now waiting for my time to step out there and start my own. 


Till next....

Sickly Day

To wake up with aching bones and high fever is definitely something I was not looking forward to.Especially now,when I really can't afford the luxury of calling in sick and curling up on my bed.oh well,I do not have much choice except to get ready and leave to work as my boss has pre-arranged
"assignments" for me.Argh!I wish I was not that easy to be taken advantage of, or at least I had the power to say NO.Either way,I have to drag myself out of my bed and start my daily "adventure".Oh and I got my NOOK started.yay!It's a cool interesting flat lil' mini book that more or less looks like the much hated iPad.And I had a dream like I was brushing my hair.And later on I was on a hunt for a sim card.Followed by a fight with a group of people.Weird.I should get going so see ya.

My Daily...

You can call it my daily ramble,daily moment,daily whatever..but today is more of my daily insight.Why you may ask?Simple because my patience is tested(at work obviously) and I am trying to keep my balance in check.So today I don't have to deal with my moody boss(thank god!),but I certainly have to deal with 2 more coworkers whom does not like me at all.Again why?Just because they feel like I will eventually take over their job(or maybe even this company!) and leave them with nothing.Come to think about it,I am not even half as close to what they are getting paid,and I must say at first I was very intimidated with this environment.But what the heck,I am here for myself,thus I promised that I would not allow anyone affect me in any ways.I guess I'm failing on that part,as today really took a toll on me.With a good cup of coffee,and sitting under a tree outside my office writing this blog,I somehow am trying to get over it by telling myself over and over again to be clear with my intentions and leave people be.The moment I walked in my office,I knew I was the Ugly Betty of this place,and each time I tried to prove it wrong,I ended up in the "right" alley.Thus,I have decided not to try too hard,and just do my own things provided I do not get in ways with miss bimbo,miss grumpy,and mr.monotone.Oh well,gotta get back to work before my boss hunts me down.Laters....

After a Hard Day Work

Oh boy work was crazy!So much to do and yet I felt I was not accomplishing anything,with my boss expecting me to get it done fast enough.I was feeling lethargic and brain dead,and of course time would move way slower than it's usual.*Sigh*.Nonetheless,I took off from work early the moment my boss was out of the door.hehehehe.I needed a good caffeine fix,and a power nap.Which I did.Yes.I am proud of myself for doing things as I've planned,even if it is something as simple as taking a nap.I am trying to be kind towards my body and mind,not over-flooding it with too much information or exhausting myself with a capital E.I guess all this simple changes also gradually improves my mood swings,and lately I have been very much of a calm person.Although it sounds little,but the change is "a lil miracle" for me,and never did I saw myself coming through like this. Oh and I got myself a nook today :) as an award for myself for working so hard and braving through all those tough times.I am glad I did,so hello there my new best friend.:)

Work Week 3

So today is my first day coming to work WITHOUT taking a bus(just so you know it takes me 2 hours and 30 minutes bus ride plus a 30 minute solid walk up the hill!),and my very own car took me safely!yay!It is the most heavenly feeling of having to wake up much later than my usual time when I was taking the bus,and it feels good!I can say that I have certainly progressed to the next level of my life and my adventure as an independent woman started off well enough.Oh and my boss is all grumpy today, whining and complaining about how things are not right in the office,and all I did was to just smile to break the tension. I have learned one thing that no matter how grumpy or moody a person can be,it can all be changed with a smile.Yes,this is definitely a different person talking right here,and I guess I am ready for a change..:)

Inspirational Talk

I had a very interesting talk with my aunt and uncle,which has inspired and also helped me heal the wound.As I am a generally quiet person whom does not share my internal feelings with anyone,I finally opened up as much to my aunt and though I had my doubts at first,I was quick enough to brush it aside and just spill out my heart.I guess I did the right thing and throughout the talk,I learned not only about values and perceptions on how to lead life,but I have never heard my aunt and uncle in such a way!So I am not going to the details of our conversation but basically what I learned out of it was 3 things that one needs to practice in order to achieve their mission as a human being is:

1) Be honest with your intentions

2) Forgive everyone including yourself

3)Give unconditional love

I have personally vowed to practice those 3,maybe I'll have my hiccups here and there,but hey,I'll try it as I am ready for a change..:)

Mantra

So let's just say I am very much in the writing mood.This past couple of weeks have been really rough for me as I was sucked in by an emotional vacuum.It took me a while to cough it out,though not completely but I would rather say I have learned to look at life in different layers.In times of despair when anger and sadness and the urge to just scream,shout and cry was at the highest,I also had an urge for this particular mantra that I know from past which I have completely forgotten.It is a very simple mantra,yet a powerful one.I did not know the true meaning of it till I was listening to the mantra for the past couple of days and it just simply goes "Om Tare Tuttare Ture Swaha".Out of curiosity,I googled up the meaning and came across this one explanation which I thought was amazing.It simply sounded like this,whereby in times of happiness,or unhappy circumstances,I prostrate to You with my body,speech and mind and liberate me from sufferings,disease and the 8 fears.If you are curious of what the 8 fears are,it is ignorance,attachment,anger,pride,jealousy,miserliness,doubt and wrong views.And if you come to think about it,most of us are engulfed with the above mentioned 8 fears,and the strength and power is right within us which we can tap.I believe it is something that we seek within our own mind,but again most of us make the mistake of seeking in vain a solution to the mystery in the outside world.